For my entire life I’ve wrestled with spiritual questions, dreams of the future, and who I want to become. The idea of living a life with no direction and no purpose has never appealed to me and I’m certain that you have felt the same way. Most of us, when we are young, ask the question, “What do I want to be?”
As I grow older I’m asking a better question: who am I becoming?
This is constantly a process for me, but the more I ask that question, the more I can release many of the circumstances that are outside of my control. Am I becoming more like Jesus? Am I loving my wife better each day? Am I being more authentic with the people I interact with each day? Am I giving my best towards the dreams I have for the future?
Unlike animals, humanity has an inner longing for “self” or “identity”. We create fake images of ourselves to portray what we long to be. We purchase expensive clothes, we drive extravagant cars, and we display ourselves on social media in the best light, hoping and praying that no one ever really catches on to who we really are.
The problem is, deep down inside, we know who we really are and so does God. We can’t outrun that reality, no matter how awesome we present ourselves to the rest of the world.
So each of us is left with the question: who am I becoming?
We are faced with the reality that our identities can either drive us to despair or they can drive us to finding our identity in the God who created us, who pursued us in Jesus, and who we were created to be in relationship with all along. We can begin to make choices that drive us to health mentally, physically, and spiritually, or we can choose roads with detrimental consequences.
And if you’re seeking God and don’t quite know what to do with Jesus yet, let me just say that you’re heading in the right direction. In the Scriptures we are told,
“God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us.” – Acts 17:27
Are you at a place where you long to turn to God, but you feel too ashamed, guilty, lacking, unworthy, and rejected? The heart of God is that you would turn to Him, call Him your Father, find shelter in Him, and ultimately discover who you really are.
So, some questions:
- Who do you know yourself to be, right this minute, if you’re completely honest?
- Is your identity in relationship with Jesus, or are you still searching?
- Have you asked God to reveal Himself to you?