“I am sure God keeps no one waiting unless He sees that it is good for him to wait.” – C.S. Lewis
There have been many moments in my life where I’ve asked God for clarity, for answers, for healing, and for deliverance, but all that I received in response was silence. The obvious Christian answer to this conundrum is that God is developing our perseverance, building our faith, and strengthening our hearts. But let’s get honest: God’s silence can be deafening and oftentimes, painful.
Why does God wait to give us what is good? In my own journey, I’ve been asking similar questions, especially in the areas of my life that need healing and repair.
Sometimes our requests are simply matters of increased finances, a new relationship, or clarity in decisions of everyday life. But those requests aren’t the ones that often drive us mad in the waiting process…It’s the unanswered requests of a heavy heart that often confound and confuse us in the journey of faith. Why would a good, gracious, loving God remain silent in our despair?
In the moments where God has been silent in my life, I’ve often embraced flawed beliefs that I’m simply not worth His time, that He’s not concerned with my situation, and that I’ve gotten lost in the shuffle…One life in the chaos of all of humanity.
And yet, despite my best efforts to turn my back on a God who appears to have turned His to me, I can’t escape the undeniable truth within my soul: that He is love unimagined, that He poured out his life to restore humanity, that every life matters to Him, and that there is nothing that could ever catch Him unaware…including the heart’s cry that seems to go unanswered.
Even in the darkness and the silence, truth remains…And truth is independent of whether or not we choose to believe in its very existence. And that truth is that God loves us, that His heart breaks when our hearts break, and that He alone can restore us to the lives we were created to live.
In the Scriptures, Jesus reminds us of our worth to the Father:
“Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.” – Matthew 10: 29-31
You may be experiencing that silence right now in your current circumstances, but don’t let your feelings deceive you. You are worth more to your Father than you could ever know or imagine. Why He is choosing to remain silent is uncertain, but our hope is not to be rooted in circumstantial feelings or emotions. Rather, our hope is to be rooted in the absolute being of God, in Who He is, in His character, and in His promises.
- In what areas of your life do you feel God is silent?
- What beliefs are you embracing about who God is?
- Do your beliefs about God exist because of your experiences or emotions, or are they established in something greater than yourself?