The human heart is a mystery we will never fully understand in this life. What is it about pain that breaks our hearts? Why does love mend? Why does time heal one heartache and leave another fragmented?
And what of the human heart’s rebellion? What does rebellion teach us about God? Can turning against God actually signify our desperation for Him?
When we are young, we are naturally-gifted rebels towards authority; no instruction is required…At least not in my case. As children we attended schools and religious institutions to learn discipline and respect because we were extremely bent on ourselves and against authority. Strangely enough, by rebelling against our childhood authorities, we actually affirmed that their “authority” existed, whether that authority was good or bad. In order for us to have rebelled we must have been under authority in the first place.
Is it possible that our rebellion against the spiritual (call it god, faith, whatever you like) actually proves that a spiritual authority exists?
Can a person push against a wall that was never built?
Will an object fall without the presence of gravity?
You may object and say that you are actually striving to be a “good human being”, not a rebel against spirituality or a “god”…which is adorably cute, but completely inane. Without an objective morality existing outside of yourself, what is there to constitute you as “good”? Without dark, what defines light? Without authority, what defines rebellion?
How does evil (aka – rebellion) exist without that which is good? How would we define it otherwise? And if evil is just a mere social construct to keep the masses at bay, who are we as mere pawns in the game of life to place limits on another being (aka – authority) through a subjective social moral construct?
More to the point: what if the reality of God is proven each time we deny Him? What if, in our anger towards spirituality and morality, we actually affirm their authority and existence? What if our human contradiction to the life of Jesus is evidence that He is Truth?
Stephen Hawking has made it his life’s work to disprove the existence of God, which baffles me, because he is one of the most brilliant scientific minds in recent history. But intelligence in one subject does not infer intelligence in another (see “Steve Jobs”: Apple creator, marketing genius, absentee father, and royal jerk to almost everyone not named “Steve Jobs”). What use is such human intelligence if it is only spent disproving that which is claimed to be non-existent? Why commit your existence to disproving the very being you believe to be a phantom? Is it possible that Hawking’s constant and deliberate denial of God is actually his soul’s acknowledgement that there is a God-shaped void?
NASA recently disclosed never-before-seen footage of the dwarf planet, Pluto, which was well documented by social media memes across the globe. What’s amazing is that all of the research, time, and funding is being spent on a planet that actually exists! Who would have thought?! The good folks at NASA didn’t say, “Hey, let’s go spend our lives and the entire space exploration budget to disprove the existence of planet Krypton!” (Superman fanboys can continue to cling to their delusions with no fear…at least for now). And yet, many of us – like Stephen Hawking – spend our lives rebelling against any spiritual authority, all while claiming disbelief in the very same authority.
Let me get personal: I know what it is to be depressed because I have experienced momentary happiness. I know what it is to be anxious because I have tasted peace. I know what it is to be broken because I have experienced wholeness. How much more can I be confident that God must be amazingly good because I have been rebelling against His authority?
We are all born rebels. No one is immune. Every one of us has experienced loneliness, echoing in the void of our souls, crying out for the living God.
We are all moving one direction or another: towards God, or away from God. But we are never standing still.
So where do we go from here if this is true?
In the Scriptures we find a way of redemption:
“This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.” – Romans 3:22-24
Ah, there it is…Grace.