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I Want To Lose My Mind

“I put my heart and soul into my work, and I have lost my mind in the process.” – Vincent Van Gogh

I was watching Erwin McManus, Pastor of Mosaic LA, speak about his recent battle with cancer and his desire to live his life for what truly matters, leaving nothing undone. Erwin has always had a way with reminding me that this life isn’t about a paycheck, the nicest house on the block, the best title on my resume, the attainment of celebrity, or a life of comfort. I hope you will be praying for him along with me. No person has had a greater impact on my life.

This messed me up hearing his words…It always has and always will reach into my soul and remind me that this life is temporary, so I must live as one who knows that they will one day die. I hate to break it to you, but none of us make it out alive. If you, like me, follow Jesus, I have great hope for what comes next.

Have you ever stopped to ask yourself why you do what you do with your time? When your life on this earth is all said and done, don’t you want to be able to say, “I gave it all, I lived in love, and I invested in eternity”? I’m not “living the dream” yet, but I certainly don’t intend to stop chasing a life that’s bigger than living for just myself.

I want to lose my mind – a crazy fool in the eyes of the world as I pursue Jesus, as I toss aside my lust for the things of this world, and as I pour myself into speaking life into others. It’s not that I am suggesting that we literally go crazy; rather, we must live for more than ourselves, which appears to be insane in the eyes of a hedonistic world.

“The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are.” – John Pierpont

My heart is ready to “step towards getting somewhere”. Following Jesus has rarely brought clarity, but it certainly has brought eternal value to my soul. It is my intention to keep chasing that light.