“The victorious Christian neither exalts nor downgrades himself. His interests have shifted from self to Christ.” – A.W. Tozer
This life was never about just me.
I was a good little Christian teenager growing up. No drugs, alcohol, wild women, or demon worship (although I loved gothic/industrial rock). Some of my friends even made fun of how “holy” I was…Man, did I ever let that get to my head. I was pretty freakin’ awesome!
Problem: I had my own vices, but they were not as easy to see. When my friends were out partying, I was at a movie or reading a book, yet filled with pride and self-righteousness. I wasn’t out with them in their debauchery. When I went to youth group on Wednesday night, it was easy to think I was a “better Christian” than the other students who always skipped out. When others were listening to “secular rock”, I was the goodie-goodie listening to primarily Christian rock. Again, I was practically the embodiment of holiness in a sheltered white teenager (or so I thought).
And yet, I was drunk on myself and my own arrogance. I was worshiping my own false god: me.
The only season I played hight school football was with a private Christian league in Charlotte. I ended up winning by team vote “Co-Spiritual Leader”, sharing the honor with another guy. I knew better. This guy was a closet party animal, so I secretly knew I was the “better Christian”.
I was the man! Jesus had to be looking at me and telling the angels, “Make me a bracelet that says WWAD – What Would Andrew Do?”
It was all about me, myself, and that pale white guy I see in the mirror every morning.
One of my greatest awakenings in life has been that I’m just as sin-sick as the rest of humanity. My addiction was self-righteousness and my adulterous affair was with my own idolatrous heart.
Let’s face it: life isn’t just about us.
We often get so caught up in what we want, what we think about ourselves, and our own egos that we lose sight of those hurting around us. We forget how incredible God is in the obsession of our own reflection.
In the Scriptures, the Psalmist contemplates this very same thing:
“I look up at your macro-skies, dark and enormous, your handmade sky-jewelry, Moon and stars mounted in their settings. Then I look at my micro-self and wonder, Why do you bother with us? Why take a second look our way?” – Psalm 8:3-4
We are so minuscule, yet the God of all things knows us deeper than we know ourselves…How can we be so self-consumed when we are so radically loved by a Being so incomprehensible?
There are others around you who need your love. Have you even noticed them, or are you too distracted with your own reflection?
The God of the universe longs for your heart…Yet, have you even sensed His presence in the consumption with your own selfish, egotistical self-worship?
It’s time we sobered up and drank deeply of a life of generosity and the pursuit of the heart of God.